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The Weight of the Moment
There are moments in life that change us — not instantly, but in ways that become clearer with time.
My first time was one of those moments.
Growing up, I had heard countless stories about it. Friends whispered exaggerated tales in locker rooms, movies painted it as either a magical experience or a complete disaster, and sex education barely scratched the surface of what it actually meant to be intimate with someone for the first time.
I wasn’t obsessed with the idea of losing my virginity, but I was curious. I wanted to know what it felt like, what the fuss was about, and — if I’m being completely honest — I didn’t want to be the last one in my circle of friends who hadn’t done it yet.
What I didn’t realize at the time was that the first time isn’t just about sex. It’s about emotions, expectations, and the lessons you only learn once you’ve crossed that invisible line between inexperience and experience.
The Build-Up: Between Curiosity and Hesitation
I wasn’t in a rush, but I wasn’t indifferent either.
I wanted my first time to be with someone I cared about, someone who made me feel safe. I didn’t have a…
